kelcey

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-11-25T12:41:00

2009-11-25T17:41:49Z

I am getting really good at pretending everything is okay. I need to look for another job but my hopes are so high for this summer that i don't want to find anything.

what do you do when you dont miss your past, but you cant stand the 'right now' and the future, well asking for that is like asking for a shot to the head...and not the good kind of shot. haha o.O

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-11-19T22:15:00

2009-11-20T03:14:43Z

i will die alone.

it hurts;

2009-11-02T04:11:52Z

this is the worst i have felt in a long time, i miss my man.
i just want him as a constant in my life. is that too much to ask?

rough around the edges;

2009-10-25T23:24:08Z

nothing lasts forever, i really gotta get use to that. i just wish some of the people in my life were less like seasons, always changing and never sticking around long enough. o.O

i miss the sun ♥

Ek is lief vir jou!

2009-10-19T15:42:38Z

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-10-17T08:05:00

2009-10-17T12:06:50Z

I NEED SLEEP, AND LOTS OF IT, STAT!!

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-10-14T13:25:00

2009-10-14T17:26:39Z

i am done, i give up, i fold.

because marley fell asleep on my lap

2009-10-11T05:48:17Z

a picture of you in your room.

a picture of you not sober.

a picture of you on your birthday, or your favourite holiday.

the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.

a picture of you in one of your favourite outfits.

a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

a picture of you truly being yourself.

the most recent picture of you.

a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

a picture of you showing off a new haircut/color.

a picture of a time in your life that’s over, but you wish it wasn’t.

a picture of a time in your life that’s over, and you couldn’t be more thankful that it is.

a picture of you when you were only happy…

a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.

a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.

a picture of you with someone you love.

a picture of how you’d like the world to see you.

a picture that describes how you’d like to spend every day.

a picture of a time when everything was changing.

a picture that makes your heart hurt.

a picture that makes your heart smile.

A picture of one of the best nights of your life. (or day)

never good enough.

2009-10-11T03:11:33Z

i am doing the best that i can, but with every breath i take i lose more and more faith.

thinking a little too much

2009-09-29T18:03:24Z

im frustrated.

if my life was a movie, this would be the soundtrack...

2009-09-28T17:08:56Z

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

1. Opening Credits: margaritaville, alan jackson and jimmy buffett.
2. Waking Up: tiny vessels, death cab for cutie.
3. First Day At School: rehab redo, amy whinehouse ft. jay z.
4. Falling In Love: the bitch song, bowling for soup.
5. Peaceful and/or Fight Song: do you remember, jack johnson.
6. Breaking Up: rumors of my demise have been greatly exaggerated, rise againt.
7. Prom: bad things, jace everett.
8. Life: get ya mind right, young jeezy.
9. Mental Breakdown: time of your life, green day.
10. Driving: time and confusion, anberlin.
11. Flashback: when youre gone, lucero.
12. Getting back together: bound to the floor, local h.
13. Graduating: at least im known for something, new found glory.
14. Wedding: i swear its the last time, less than jake.
15. Birth of Child: a lack of color, death cab for cutie.
16. Final Battle: Cavalier Eternal, against me!
17. Funeral Song: love, g love and special sauce.
18. End Credits: the girl, city and colour.

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-09-18T01:26:00

2009-09-18T05:30:30Z

realizing i can miss you with out being sad is the greatest feeling, my heart is just so warm. i am happy with the way things are going. being alone isnt so bad after all.

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-09-16T00:50:00

2009-09-16T05:30:49Z

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-09-12T01:35:00

2009-09-12T05:36:36Z

if i spent everyday for the rest of my life with michelle, i'd be happy.

just sayin' :)
oh and sleeping in everyday wouldn't hurt either

all i have to say is ...

2009-09-07T18:46:59Z

"ya know we have a lot in common. for instance our favorite shape is a triangle...and we can tell the future" ;)

i love my life so much :)

from the heart:

2009-09-05T04:24:32Z

im gunna kinda try using this thing again, maybe.

so much has changed in my life over the past few months, im still trying to wrap my head around it all. i cut all my hair off, its the shortest its ever been it a long time, and its dark like purple ish black i guess, i actually like it :) i changed my major at school, and my job has actually been awesome, its a nice change of pace after the rough start i had to this year.

i lost the one person i counted on the most, and as much as it hurts to not have him in my life anymore, i cant help but smile. i am so thankful for everything i got to share with you, and for the time i got to spend with such an amazing person in my life, looking back at everything just makes my heart light up, and despite all the rough patches and all the hurtful words weve exchanged, you really are a great guy, thank you for being my rock for so long; you really do deserve the best and you will always be my number one because when i look back all i remember was all the good, because thats all that mattered.

oh and i took my last trip to the doctors, just about everything is back to normal and im so relieved, it was one of the most devastating things ive ever been through, to hear that i could have had a chance in february if i would have fought it out, i cant help but wonder what my life would be like<3

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-07-28T19:10:00

2009-07-12T23:38:03Z

better late then never, right?

i lost my best friend, it hurt to know how unimportant i was all along but at the same time im glad i finally figured it out for myself. i think i will miss him but i'd like to think your past becomes your past for a reason.

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-02-23T23:32:00

2009-02-24T04:33:02Z

i've got butterflies, i wish this could happen but i know it cant.

my new jaw

2009-02-15T23:04:17Z

since i finally got a new battery for my camera,

i know its not the greatest picture ever but this is what i look like now, im still not totally use to it but if you look closely you can see the scar, there is one on each side of my jaw. it still hurts sometimes, and its still numb, its awkward

kelseaaamonster @ 2009-01-01T11:25:00

2009-01-01T16:26:38Z

plain and simple, happy new year

kelseaaamonster @ 2008-12-22T23:50:00

2008-12-23T04:55:35Z

i hate being honest with myself; i honestly miss being your number one. :|

i love that i can want to tear you apart but the second i look you in the eyes my heart melts all over again, i love that no matter how many times you try, you cant make pancakes for the life of you and that you know just how to push my buttons. i love that you let me call you names and i love that you can look past my bad days and hold on to the good ones we have although i would rather have a million bad days with you than a million good days with someone else because it just wouldnt be the same. you and i, thats all that matters, you may be a big idiot, but youre my big idiot, and i love you.

best christmas song ever

2008-12-15T02:06:16Z

i must be losing my mind, theres gotta be a better way to deal with the pain, theres gotta be a better way to deal with the hate, wish that i could find some way to make you go away, wish that i could have a drink and make you fade away, wish that i could have myself a drink and make you fade, i wish that i could have myself a drink and make you fade, i wish that i could have a drink and make you go away, i will be hating you for christmas,

yeah i will be hating you for christmas.

kelseaaamonster @ 2008-12-07T14:40:00

2008-12-07T19:41:01Z

I could make you smile, If you stayed a while
But how long will you stay with me, baby?

kelseaaamonster @ 2008-12-02T19:44:00

2008-12-03T01:05:27Z

i am finally home from the hospital, i hope everyone had a great thanksgiving
my surgery went pretty good, my anaestheologist was really attractive haha, and the girl i shared a room with was the nicest ever, but her family was way loud. just nice to be home, i am so overly ready to be done with pain though :(

me and marley have been laying in bed for days, i love her. but i am sick of day time television. shes four months old today.

kelseaaamonster @ 2008-11-04T10:36:00

2008-11-04T15:48:07Z

halloween was good this year, malrey was a bumble bee i have pictures somewhere, but i cant find them right now. i already miss thirteen nights of halloween and cn didnt really play as many goosebumps episodes this year, talk about a big let down.

oh ps. everyone go vote!!
PA-LEASE