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[25 Nov 2009|12:41pm] |
I am getting really good at pretending everything is okay. I need to look for another job but my hopes are so high for this summer that i don't want to find anything.
what do you do when you dont miss your past, but you cant stand the 'right now' and the future, well asking for that is like asking for a shot to the head...and not the good kind of shot. haha o.O
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[19 Nov 2009|10:15pm] |
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i will die alone.
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[01 Nov 2009|11:05pm] |
this is the worst i have felt in a long time, i miss my man.
i just want him as a constant in my life. is that too much to ask?
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[25 Oct 2009|07:18pm] |
nothing lasts forever, i really gotta get use to that. i just wish some of the people in my life were less like seasons, always changing and never sticking around long enough. o.O
i miss the sun ♥
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[17 Oct 2009|08:05am] |
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I NEED SLEEP, AND LOTS OF IT, STAT!!
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[14 Oct 2009|01:25pm] |
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i am done, i give up, i fold.
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[10 Oct 2009|11:11am] |
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i am doing the best that i can, but with every breath i take i lose more and more faith.
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[28 Sep 2009|12:55pm] |
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So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
1. Opening Credits: margaritaville, alan jackson and jimmy buffett.
2. Waking Up: tiny vessels, death cab for cutie.
3. First Day At School: rehab redo, amy whinehouse ft. jay z.
4. Falling In Love: the bitch song, bowling for soup.
5. Peaceful and/or Fight Song: do you remember, jack johnson.
6. Breaking Up: rumors of my demise have been greatly exaggerated, rise againt.
7. Prom: bad things, jace everett.
8. Life: get ya mind right, young jeezy.
9. Mental Breakdown: time of your life, green day.
10. Driving: time and confusion, anberlin.
11. Flashback: when youre gone, lucero.
12. Getting back together: bound to the floor, local h.
13. Graduating: at least im known for something, new found glory.
14. Wedding: i swear its the last time, less than jake.
15. Birth of Child: a lack of color, death cab for cutie.
16. Final Battle: Cavalier Eternal, against me!
17. Funeral Song: love, g love and special sauce.
18. End Credits: the girl, city and colour.
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[18 Sep 2009|01:26am] |
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realizing i can miss you with out being sad is the greatest feeling, my heart is just so warm. i am happy with the way things are going. being alone isnt so bad after all.
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[12 Sep 2009|01:35am] |
if i spent everyday for the rest of my life with michelle, i'd be happy.
just sayin' :)
oh and sleeping in everyday wouldn't hurt either
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| all i have to say is ... |
[07 Sep 2009|02:37pm] |
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"ya know we have a lot in common. for instance our favorite shape is a triangle...and we can tell the future" ;)
i love my life so much :)
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[04 Sep 2009|11:52pm] |
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im gunna kinda try using this thing again, maybe.
so much has changed in my life over the past few months, im still trying to wrap my head around it all. i cut all my hair off, its the shortest its ever been it a long time, and its dark like purple ish black i guess, i actually like it :) i changed my major at school, and my job has actually been awesome, its a nice change of pace after the rough start i had to this year.
i lost the one person i counted on the most, and as much as it hurts to not have him in my life anymore, i cant help but smile. i am so thankful for everything i got to share with you, and for the time i got to spend with such an amazing person in my life, looking back at everything just makes my heart light up, and despite all the rough patches and all the hurtful words weve exchanged, you really are a great guy, thank you for being my rock for so long; you really do deserve the best and you will always be my number one because when i look back all i remember was all the good, because thats all that mattered.
oh and i took my last trip to the doctors, just about everything is back to normal and im so relieved, it was one of the most devastating things ive ever been through, to hear that i could have had a chance in february if i would have fought it out, i cant help but wonder what my life would be like<3
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[28 Jul 2009|07:10pm] |
better late then never, right?
i lost my best friend, it hurt to know how unimportant i was all along but at the same time im glad i finally figured it out for myself. i think i will miss him but i'd like to think your past becomes your past for a reason.
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[23 Feb 2009|11:32pm] |
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i've got butterflies, i wish this could happen but i know it cant.
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[15 Feb 2009|06:02pm] |
since i finally got a new battery for my camera,
i know its not the greatest picture ever but this is what i look like now, im still not totally use to it but if you look closely you can see the scar, there is one on each side of my jaw. it still hurts sometimes, and its still numb, its awkward
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[01 Jan 2009|11:25am] |
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plain and simple, happy new year
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